Messy

Messy.

Life can be very, very messy.

It's been a really rough year (oy) and this fall I am stepping back to reflect. Many pieces of my life are being tossed up in the air - who knows where they will land. What am I about and what the heck am I doing? Am I who I really think I am? Are these priorities really my priorities?  I am feeling lost and frustrated and fed up.

But at least I'm not fighting it anymore. I'm surrendering to the craziness.

While I am still happily teaching my Yoga for V Pain classes, amidst this nuttiness I have given myself permission to pull back from my other v pain ventures. (For instance, you may have noticed that the text for this blog no longer appears in your email, instead there is just a link. That is not intentional! I have been banging my head against a wall since August trying to fix it - but instead of pressuring myself to get it right, right now, I only bang my head for a limited time each week, and then step away and accept the imperfection of technological glitches. Until the next week, when I try again.)

I am sifting through my commitments and pulling back and saying no to some things, and stepping up in other areas.

Gardeners and farmers know that s**t makes the best fertilizer. I am trying to remember that. Some of the worst times in my life ultimately put me on a better path, so hopefully that will happen here too!

So much of my dissatisfaction in life comes from resistance to what is happening (and often, the pace at which it is or is not happening.) There always seems to be some insidious bar against which I am measuring myself and my life, a bar that will constantly morph so that the results of my measurements are always the same: "not enough."

I mean really.

(I am rolling my eyes at it now.)

Stepping back, it is silly that I fall for that stupidity so frequently! And yet I do. So here I am, pulling back. Looking at the stupid bar and wondering if it belongs in trash or recycling.

I hope wherever you are this week - mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually - you are being gentle with yourself. Happy Fall!

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Yoga for V Pain Classes! AWESOME

I will be teaching a dedicated Yoga for V pain class this fall in Oakland and I am so excited!!! It's been a long time coming, but I finally found a good venue at good time and a decent price. Live locally? Check it out!

Why will this class be so totally awesome?

1. Discretion! I am renting a studio, not operating under their umbrella, so the class title won't be on their schedule anywhere. The studio is on the third floor of the building and the main ground floor entrance leads to another business as well (a women's clothing store) so people won't know why you're walking into 1635 Broadway. Maybe you just want an awesome new dress or are taking some other yoga class, amirite?
2. EVERYONE will have some kind of v pain, so you can ask all your v pain questions in a safe, confidential space.
3. It's a series! We'll have five classes to dive not only into anatomy but also a variety of yogic approaches that you can both practice at home or use to modify other classes you take.
4. It's a series Part 2! That means it will be the same group of women each time. You don't have to be brave enough to meet new people every time, just the once. It'll be like a book club for your vagina...
5. Come as you are! V health is so glaringly overlooked in yoga classes that it doesn't matter if you are a newbie or a seasoned practitioner, you will learn something new and awesome.
6. Come as you are Part 2! It doesn't matter if you have a diagnosis or not. Show up and we can help point you to resources you may be lacking.
7. Beautiful space! We will be at Barefoot Movement, all hardwood floors and high ceilings and original windows. There are mats to borrow (no charge) if you don't have one, and plenty of props to use for what a colleague of mine's 3 year old daughter calls "cozy yoga." You'll see why...
8. Convenient time! 7pm Fridays, but not all in a row so it won't mess up your social calendar...
9. Free street parking after 6pm, across the street from the 19th St BART station, and close to many bus lines.
10. Finally meet some other women dealing with this crap and have a good laugh and a good cry and eat some chocolate already!

You can learn more at my website faithcornwall.com, or head directly to my MeetUp group to sign up. $75 for 5 classes (that's $15/class, on the low side of average for the Bay Area.) Handouts will keep you caught up if you miss one!

Be there or be square!

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